life...

2006-06-24T19:28:00.000-07:00

Regradless that at time; I love him.would die without him, hate him. It matters not. because whatever he used to be to me, whatever he used to mean to me.he has become my everything.
-When you look into eachothers eyes, travelling to the depths of eachothers souls. You say a million things; without a trace of sound. You know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rythmic beatings of their very heart. You love them for a million reasons; I love you...i need you...i miss you<3
...and shes not so pretty when she crys<3-------
*i wrote this for that special person that i hold in my heart and he doesnt know it.*
--in life we never know when it will come to an end...so what do we do then..with tragedy is around the bend??
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hold your head up high and dont love down.youll always have that special person by your side. This is why i love all my friends who are there for me through evvvverything...and just know that i will always love you no matter what time will do to us..and im always here for you guys<33

complicated much??

2006-06-24T19:01:00.000-07:00

"we live.we love.we forgive and never give up, cause they days we are given are gifts from above, and today we remember to live and to love"
so basically this song is stuck in my head. I tend to do that with alot of songs i hear, turn them into a more poetic form and kind of analize them. Music is basically the source of my life, I couldnt live without it. But theese lyrics got me thinking like how true is that. It started to make me feel like i want to do something more with my life, be a hero..not the sterotypical kind that is potreyed in the movies..like spiderman..but just the hero of my own life. Accomplish something i didnt think i would be able to do...There are so many things going on in my life that I am confused about. Hey i know lifes not supposed to be simple and im definately not complaining about mine..but as they say, we all want what we cant have...the boy in my class, that is so close..but so far away. Thoose high grades that I used to get in grade 7 and 8..the simplicity of my relationship with my family...before my teenage years. Basically i want to steer my life in one direction so that i can get something ive tried for a while to acheive now.
so basically i used to be a really simple. get along with everyone. come to me if you have problems type girl...but now my life has kind of gone off on a spin and one that i think is for the better,,,, im starting to express myself in a more artistic way..i am in love with poetry and astrology...dont get me wrong im still the outgoing, love life type girl i used to be i just have a new approach to things...am i going crazy??? slowly maybe...but love is keeping me in the game<3